A World of Oblivion

The Light of the World...

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 19:45:17 GMT

...has finally come down, but is it what we want?

You don't have to follow this if you don't want to. This was just a dream sequence that I just had like...earlier. If you don't understand, don't worry about it.

So, there was this guy that was living with a bunch of people. Why? Because they were all renting out the same place. This place looked like my old house on Knox, but larger and two-stories. It was amazing, especially since all the people I knew were people who were fairly close to me. However, it wasn't paradise.

I went to school that day in search of a place to just stay and chill so I could do an essay for another class. But, when people started coming in, I was about to leave. Thing is, they wanted me to stay. I don't know why, but they did. They sat down just waiting for the next class. Then, one of the girls started singing the song "Noel". I'm not sure why they did that, but she sounded awesome. Then, the other girl next to me began to sing too. So, I decided to sing along. I tried to sing the tenor's voice, but the girl closest to me kept looking at me whenever I hit a higher voice. So, I just stopped. She looked at me with a sad, straight look.

Then, the rest of the class came in. They gave me some sheets of paper. The professor came in and scolded me not to keep my feet up on the couch that was randomly there. So, I took it off, and she began to lecture. One of the students, who looked oddly familiar, was sitting next to me. He was complaining that he didn't like his 3 year of Spanish, even though it was required. So, he just sat there listening to the professor, who also looked oddly familiar. For some strange reason, I fell through the floor. The guy that sat next to me looked down to where I was. "You okay?" he asked. "Just a scratch here and there," I replied. "You got lucky...punk." He looked back to the professor. I was 6 stories down below them. I checked myself out for bruises, cuts, and other injuries. Apparently, I was fine though.

I looked behind me and saw the sky. It was pitch black signifying that it was the middle of the night. "How did that happen?" I thought to myself. "I swear it was day the first minute." Anyway, I started to walk around to see how I could get out of there. Strangely enough, I was able to find some kind of way out with a set of stairs near by. As I was nearing in the stairs, there was a beetle on my foot. It seemed like it was blind or something because it kept hitting walls and the stairs. I felt so sorry for it. I picked it up, and it looked me straight in the eye. I knew this wasn't any ordinary beetle though because it gave me those anime eyes like this (o.-;;) Such a sad faith. For some reason, I just knew it was hungry though. So, I decided to take it with me. The second I stepped on the first step, I realized that it was made of different flavored waffers. "This must be some wacked out school or a really poor school." I found another way out somewhere near the side and appeared in some chemistry lab. "Quite a strange place." My head couldn't take anymore of this. So, I left the school before it got any worse. I went home with this beetle.

As I was going home, I met a few other interesting characters, some look alike Pikachu (yes, too much Pokemon) and this random pet that I found. I wasn't even sure if it was a cat or a dog, but it was something to pet apparently. Anyway, I went inside the house. I sat in the corner taking care of that beetle. People around me were running around frantically. "What's wrong?" I asked one of the tenants. "Someone has been stealing our things!" she replied with a panicked face. "Like what?" She looked at me with a strange look. "Where have you been for the past few weeks?! Have you not noticed your things stolen?" I looked around. "Um...I don't even know why I'm here or when I moved in." She grunted and walked away. "Whatever I guess." I continued to play with the three "pets". I noticed a small pool of water. It became larger every time I looked at it though. "That isn't how it's supposed to be. Why is there water?" I looked up at the ceiling. There was a hole through the roof. I deducted that the thief around the house might be using this as a tactic to steal from everyone inside the house. A hole to peek through when people were away. So, I decided to take a look at it. I went on the roof and checked it out. I was scared to just look down since it was a two-story fall. Like that was any different from my 6 story one. So, as I was on the roof, I saw a shady figure walking around. I got down and tracked him down. I caught up to him and pinned him to the wall. It was one of the tenants. I don't know if he was the one stealing or anything, but he was a familiar face. I accused him of stealing, and the two of us yelled at one another continuously. Everyone came out to see what was going on. I just left with a scowl on my face to try to fix the roof again. Then, the shady figure walked inside the house. The next thing I knew, he came out with a machine gun. He held up everyone outside. I jumped down and kneed him on his face. He bled on my pants, but it didn't matter. I saved everyone. Why? I don't know.

This Dream that Haunts...

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 17:28:27 GMT

...has come back for vengeance.

So lately, I've been thinking of remaking my little story series all over again. Because I've gotten requests to do it again, I've decided to dump the old series and start anew with a better story where I won't get lost anymore. I hope this works.

Here's the back story:

Everyone has dreams. Whether it may be real or not, people always dream in their sleep or in reality so they could imagine an outcome to their own reality. Sometimes, it does come true. Most times, it doesn't though.

With the help of two legendary swords, Shikyou and Ukiyou, the balance of nightmares, dreams, and reality lie in the balance. However, something has disrupted the balance causing nightmares to become more common in people's dreams. It then causes fear to sleep, which disrupts the balance of the real world. People become more stressed and exhausted. No one could tell which is reality and which is just a dream. THe world has become corrupted with fear all over. No one says anything though because they only think it's just a dream. But one child thinks differently.

A young kid named Jikurai is a special person who has abilities to roam into other people's dreams. He lives in the ghetto areas where shots are fired daily. He doesn't mind, but he wonders why the world is in such a terrible place sometimes.

Jikurai can fight the evil in his dreams. However, every physical damage he takes in his dreams becomes reality. He fights to protect what is reality, what is a nightmare, and what is a dream hoping that none of these worlds collide with one another. But which is reality? Which are dreams? And which are nightmares? Could he save the world by using these dreams as his ally? Or is this all a dream?

Now, this part of the series actually occurs in the middle of everything. This is only a summary.

Jikurai finds him and his friends walking down a street. They find an old man burying something in the dirt. They try to find out what it is after the old man leaves. They discover a treasure chest with an incantation book, a picture, and some paper with inscriptions of how to create dreams into reality. But, it's mostly ripped apart from aging, so no one could figure out what it really says. Then, a mysterious figure comes to them to find out what they have discovered. Jikurai and his friends put it back and bury it before the mysterious man could figure out what they were doing. Using Jikurai's small imagination, he forces it deep beneath the ground, hoping the man didn't see anything. They run off to the mall, leaving the mysterious man behind.

At the mall, they window shop for items that they don't even need. The mall is closing, and people are running out of there before security fires shots at them. Jikurai and his friends makes it out in time before they were shot to death. After, they split apart and head to their respective houses.

Jikurai is exhausted and knocks out on his bed. Not fearing death or anything he's faced thus far, he finds himself in a secluded room where no one is to be found. Then, a secret passage is opened. A man is revealed holding a sheath. Jikurai realizes that the man is actually the same man from earlier who they tried to hide their chest away. The man explains how he discovered it and is trying to control people's dreams into becoming a reality. The two begin to fight. The man's sword transforms into a replica of Ukiyou, raising hell all over. After releasing his sword, the man leaves and a mannequin of his shell appears before Jikurai. The fight rages on. Miraculously, Jikurai gives the mannequin a good blow. It dissipates into thin air. He is severely injured having cuts, bruises, and a broken arm. Jikurai plows into the secret passage and hunts down the man. But, he is stuck trying to help out his dream family with a road trip. The dream ends with him waking up. Blood is spread all over his bed, and his arm isn't broken, but severely bruised. Will he catch the mysterious man before he causes more havoc?

A New Day Dawns...

Sat, 23 May 2009 04:21:16 GMT

...as a new inspiration pops up.

First off, I guess no more MS metaphors. I can't really think of anything.

...anyway...

So, people have actually been asking me about that movie I'm making this summer. I guess I have to postpone it (possibly indefinitely). I'm not feeling up for it anymore. No one seems interested, and no one seems to really want to do it. I was right about one thing: I still feel uncomfortable and it won't be long 'til I'm gone completely. That's that. *rubs off dirt off hands*

Now, for the real thing.

I have found a new passion for writing again. I just watched some Anime: finished The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (yes, it's fairly old) and started Kurokami (a new anime released at the beginning of the year). It has been such an inspiring day. And I recall Edgar and Curly asking me about the Justincredible series for quite some time now, and every so often, they would ask me if I was going to write again. At first, I was hesitant to do so. Now, I have a passion to start again. It's burning within me to restart what I have done. This time, it's going to be different. It's going to be serious rather than comedic. Of course, there will be some comedy, but mostly serious. So, shall we start again? So far, I have 2 requests to start. Vote someone? Please?

One last thing...

...WHO ARE THE PEOPLE THAT JUST RECENTLY ADDED ME??? Please tell me who you are...I don't even know who you are! ><;;

Oh, and a few other things:

Happy Birthday to everyone! ><;; My bad...and happy graduation!!! :D

A Strange New Beginning...

Sun, 03 May 2009 05:25:58 GMT

...comes to an early end with a left hook.

Amazing. Simply amazing. If you know what it means, then I don't have to explain anymore.

I lose tonight as I continuously lose more and more time. It's a left hook of time that knocked me into my senses. Is there recovery in sight? Maybe...who knows?

4 shows in 2 months. Will there be more?

A Strange Card has Risen...

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 04:17:04 GMT

...out of the darkness revealing this final outcome of the duel.

Does anyone know the reference? If not, it's okay.

What is this final outcome? Where will everything be?

(short post)

On the Verge...

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 06:33:25 GMT

...of losing it all until something bounces it all back.

Do you have times when you think everything is about to collapse, but somehow you have small faith that it won't.

Well, that's exactly it. Sometimes, that small side of faith helps and gain successes in life. If you invested in Google long ago, you'd be well off by now *hopefully, you would would take out those investments BEFORE the stock market goes down*. Well, anyway...

...we rocked it despite our 15 minutes of practice. DJ, I wish you were there. You will the next one, and we will rock it again.

A Rock Bottom Entry...

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 14:36:45 GMT

...begins with a rock bottom idea.

So I've noticed a few things. First off, I'm not writing anymore~! >_<;; I have no Maple anecdotes for this one. Just straight up as is. I feel horrible...I need to start concentrating for sure! @_@;;

Other than that...

...it's happening again, and this time, I'm not alone to see this through. Apparently, I have many other peers who do agree about this diminishing "group" we have. It's no longer a group...it's no longer a family of friends...it's more of a clique, no, several cliques as if they were in high school. It's getting to the point where everyone tends to forget everyone else and only mind the people around them. Sadly, this is the truth. No one tells anyone anything else, and it's really irritating to know that events are always so closed to everyone else and extremely exclusive. I feel like leaving everything, and I'm sure quite a few feel the same way after talking with them.

This project needs to happen soon. Project M needs to surface! And if all goes well, things may be united again. If this fails, then I have failed and must find a new place to go...I gotta plan this out extremely well. This is one project I don't want to fail.

Motivation Killer...

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 05:34:53 GMT

...draws itself ever closer with each passing second.

...title says everything. =/ Back to the story...

The I/L mage wakes up from the horrid dream. He shakes his head side to side thinking why it all occurred. "Maybe it's a dream, maybe it's reality," he says to himself. "What will it be? Sometimes, dreams become a reality."

This Remembrance...

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 07:42:10 GMT

...comes along, and we all want to be part of it.

"I miss those days when things were just a bit simpler than usual," says the I/L mage as he takes the hit for the Rogue.

"Yeah, kind of," he replies as he moves away from the pillar.

"I miss it all..."

The Divide between...

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 19:01:07 GMT

...grace and chaos creates this divide within.

"This indescribable feeling..." says the I/L mage as he looks around the Zakum run. He tries to recover from the stun he receives from the pillar that dropped from above. With birds chirping above his head, he wonders what is going on with his life.

A few months ago...

"ZOMG! A new mount!" says the level 75 I/L mage as he looks at the old, red piggy that he is about to ride. The level 25 Rogue looks to him. "We have to make or break on this mount. It really has to get back up there. I want to mod it, and I'm sure you do, too," the Rogue says to the mage.

"Yeah, it's exactly why I saved up for this."

Going back even farther...

"I think I love her..." the level 60 I/L wizard says to the level 70 F/P mage. She looks to him with concern and confusion. "How sure are you?" she asks the young wiz.

"As sure as I can shoot ice beams from my staff and lightning strike a mob," replies the wiz. "Maybe I might be delusional, maybe it might not be love. Maybe it's a feeling that's just...I wouldn't even know..."

She rolls her eyes and looks to the new beginner Rogue to his side. She instantly falls in love with him the minute she sees his noobish clothing, to his dark brown skin and eyes. "So, who's your friend?"

"That's my newly acquired Rogue friend. Well, I've known him for a while, but I never really got the chance to talk to him."

"Maybe I can show him the ropes..." she snickers quietly.

"Don't push it now..." he looks away to his new Rogue.

...TBC

The End Result...

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 06:12:30 GMT

...of this final battle...or is it?

"My goodness," the bishop says. "Is there anyone that can really help?"

The I/L mage tries to talk to the others to regroup so they could have help. Unfortunately, no one realizes the trouble they're really in. The other teammates that were on their side left or disconnected. "This sucks..." says the I/L mage as he tries to hit the arms with his Ice Strike. "No one is helping us despite our pleas. There is too much disunity within our groups, even though we're all from the same guild. Why can't they come over and help us?!"

The other party members look at one another with discontent. "Should we just remake the guild?" asks the bishop. This is the question in everyone's mind. "Maybe we should..."

"But it's too hard, and it's not worth it!" replies the I/L mage. "Spending 5 mil on it? You're crazy. I wouldn't want to."

"He's right," says the young Fighter.

"Maybe so," replies the Bandit. "But I don't know."

"Despite the fact that there is such disunity doesn't mean we can't get along, does it?" asks the Assassin.

"It doesn't. It's just that...no one really cares about one another as much as they used to. They only worry about themselves or whoever is in their own party. Look at us!" exaggerates the I/L mage. "We're short-handed! If anything, I don't think we can take on Zakum...should we leave?"

"Maybe..." says the bishop. "And the rest of them?"

"They can suffer..." says the I/L mage.

To be continued...

*Out of context*

Want to take that boat ride to Orbis with me? Will it be safe or will it be raided by pirates? Can we survive that way? Who knows. Even though the ride is long, I'll savor every moment with you there.

*Out of out of that context*

I'm learning drift! It's harder than I thought...@_@;;

An Intriguing Encounter...

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 07:46:01 GMT

...has me baffled in what to do now.

So finally, she comes out of the shadows and I know what she looks like. She's prettier than I thought. It sucks she lives so far...so very far...I don't mind taking that trip, even if it's half way across the world...

Can I meet you?

It's that feeling again.
Our party to go against Zakum has slowly dismantled unfortunately. Everyone's arguing with one another, disconnecting from the game, leaving the party while we're bossing, or dying left and right. The parties are actually reforming while in the boss run though. Thing is, the parties becoming one-sided. Three bishops are teaming up with a Dark Knight, a Hero, and a Bowmaster trying to take this down. They're doing the right arms and slowly, everyone is going there. The strongest Night Lord, the Ranger, the other Dark Knight, the Dragon Knight, and almost everyone else. Only the lowest levels (a level 89 I/L mage, a level 58 Fighter, a level 60 Assassin, a level 50 Page, a level 64 Bandit, and the lone 125 bishop stay on the left side trying to just take down the arms. Can they survive?

To be continued...

Super Sunday Showdown...

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 06:44:21 GMT

...turns out differently from how I thought it would.

No matter. I didn't know who to cheer for until anyway.

Years ago...

...I met her. I never thought about it much, but I kinda did every so often. I didn't want to say much about it, but I guess it eventually got to me. I thought she was cool and seemed really chill. I wish I could say more...but she leaves me breathless sometimes that I think nothing of it.

I want to meet her.

Heavy Picks and Losses...

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 17:42:46 GMT

...lingers around the bend with its heavy axes and swords piercing through the losses.

It's Saturday. As promised, here's the schedule:

Monday:
AAS 201 ~ 9:00 - 9:50 AM in Sierra Hall 314
*BREAK!*
MATH 102 ~ 11:00 - 11:50 PM in Manzanita Hall 103
UN60/SI ~ 12:00 - 1:00 PM in Bayraymian Hall 300
*BREAK!*
AAS 340 ~ 2:00 - 3:15 PM in Sierra Hall 321
*BREAK!*
HIST 270 ~ 7:00 - 9:45 PM in the Johnson Auditorium

(such a long day...)

Tuesday:
AAS 430 ~ 2:00 - 3:15 PM in Education 1127

(I love Tuesday and Thursday. ONE CLASS! W00T!)

Wednesday:
AAS 201 ~ 9:00 - 9:50 AM in Sierra Hall 314
*BREAK!*
MATH 102 ~ 11:00 - 11:50 AM in Manzanita Hall 103
UN60/SI ~ 12:00 - 12:50 PM in Bayraymian Hall 300
*BREAK!*
AAS 340 ~ 2:00 - 3:15 PM in Sierra Hall 321
*BREAK!*
AAS 361A ~ 4:20 - 6:50 PM in Jerome Richfield 134
KoA ~ 7:00 - 7:30...ish...PM (I don't know if I could get there in time though)

(My Wednesdays are good for the end. =D)

Thursday:
AAS 430 ~ 2:00 - 3:15 PM in Education 1127
Basketball? ~ 5:30 - 7:00 PM?
SGYM ~ 7:00 - 9:00 PM?

(Thursdays are okay, but...there are reasons why it's not my favorite day anymore...)

Friday:
AAS 201 ~ 9:00 - 9:50 AM in Sierra Hall 314
*BREAK!*
MATH 102 ~ 11:00 - 11:50 AM in Manzanita Hall 103

(Fridays are short, but they tend to be long because of Math...-_-;;)

There you go~! If anyone wants to chill, you know the number to call. Let's hang out sometime, yeah?

*such a busy weekend this weekend...*

Schedule for this weekend:

Friday has gone, but here it is anyway:
AAS 201 ~ 9:00 - 9:50 AM in Sierra Hall 314
*BREAK!*
MATH 102 ~ 11:00 - 11:50 AM in Manzanita Hall 103

This is the part that became tricky...either play tennis with Liz or go to Jason's house to help him with the engine. I couldn't do either...-_-;;

...but...!

I was able to go to the Tet Festival in the area of Little Saigon. That was fun. =) It was nice seeing Jen, Phi, Thao, and Tri again. Been a while since we all last saw one another. JOHN! LET'S GO FOR ANOTHER TRIP! =D

Saturday:
Trip to ChinaTown in Downtown L.A. ~ 11:00 AM - ?
Full on Zakum Run ~ 11:00 PM - ?

That's my whole day right there! Who knows how long we'll be in Chinatown. I hope it's good. I'm anticipating it. The Zak run...man...it's going to be tough. COME BACK ANNE! WE MISS YOU! T_T;;

Sunday:
Church ~ 11:00 - 12:00 PM
Super Bowl Party at Curly's ~ Some time after church - ?
Super Bowl Party at Jason's ~ Am I even going?

I don't see homework in there...XD I need time for that now!

A Heartache's Pain...

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 15:33:22 GMT

...caused by the environment around makes one rethink their goals and abilities.

I think I'll speak metaphorically again. Only one person reads this anyway, and he would be the only one that gets it.

Partying with a level 25 and 15 newbs is cool, especially when you feel like the odds are against you. But when you're against a boss, and you really needed that boost, where is it? Where is that Meditation I so sorely ask for? Where is that Rage the other members need? Where is that cleric's Bless that could help us defend ourselves?

The party was not evened out at all. It was a level 89 Ice/Lightning Mage partying with a level 25 Swordsman and a level 15 Rouge against a three-headed dragon, all different levels. There was a level 110 Ranger but was the slowest out of all. Then, there was a level 130 Dark Knight with Haste abilities, but he was still holding back his abilities against us. Then, there was the level 150 Hero that was just beyond expectations since he had Haste, Rage, Bless, and other skills that were almost unknown to the other team. Together, they combined to be a level 140 boss. The worst part? The teams were chosen by that level 110 Ranger. The Ranger did not give the level 15 Rouge a chance at attaining the party leader. The level 89 Mage knew that he had a level 25 Swordsman already. The other team also knew it too, but the level 110 Ranger only wanted the victory for himself. So, selfishly, he did not give the level 15 Rouge a chance. Victory was not looking towards them.

It was almost nonexistent...or so it seems.

Early on, it seems that the boss was pretty easy. Even if the level difference is extremely different, the boss run held well. The HP and MP bars on everyone in our party was drastically decreasing and slowly increasing as each hit went through. The highest level on the team, which was reigning around level 89, was the only one that seemed to be surviving. During the boss run, the level 89 became weaker due to the fact that Magic Cancellation turned on every two minutes. Not only that, he became slightly disabled because of the fact that he was Sealed and Weakened every one minute. So, his reliance went to his other weaker teammates. Thankfully, they were able to step up and take those hits and misses for him. Unfortunately, the level 25 became too weak with the curses and ran out of All Cure pots. Some of us tried giving him some, but it was too late. The level 25 died but gained quite a bit of EXP during the run that he was able to level to 30 in almost an instant. Fortunately, a level 105 stepped in to try to help us take down a level 140 boss. The team was fortunate to add him to the team, but it wasn't enough. Hoping that a victory would clash one another, the level 140 boss became a level 150 boss. Apparently, the boss has been holding back quite a bit. The level 89's MP gauge went down drastically as the boss run continued. The level 89 was severely running out of pots but was still willing to go on. Could they win? Could they be victorious? Were the underdogs attempt to defeat this level 150 boss going to be one of the best climaxes of all of history?

Apparently not.

Our efforts down to the stretch were getting sloppy. I saw misses everywhere by the level 15 Rouge, but what do you expect? With that level difference, there's a good reason as to why the Rouge was missing quite a bit. Even though it was frustrating and the loss was just disappointing, the party gained quite a bit of EXP and knowledge as to how to take on the boss again. Can it be done? Will it be done?

Maybe.

One more time I say. Once more, and let the team that's willing gain that prize and victory they so sorely desire. Even if party is still uneven with that level 30 Fighter and the level 20 Rouge *because he was able to level up a bit*, I'm sure one day, they will fight alongside one another.

A Need of Such Syrup...

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 07:53:03 GMT

...is not always needed but always thanked when received.

That was extremely short. I should lengthen it.

You know, there are custom items that could be bought in order to redo the stupid things you did. I've done it before. I've reversed time in the game and put points into the correct slots. It's what I usually do. I try to reverse these things, even in my current characters. It's hard though, especially when you don't have the right tools, funding, or idea into where you're going to put it next.

Sometimes, life is like having that old character and not knowing the different possibilities you could have done to make your character even better than before. You don't always know those builds that you're about to make, those builds that you can look at, or the builds that are better than you think of. But you still make those character builds anyway. Will it be good? Will it help you survive? Or will you fall into that pit of despair and try to locate the nearest exit sign knowing that you can't make it? Or will you press that "quit" button and try to get out as fast as you can without dying?

My warrior friend, which path you think you will take? Which path will lead you to that boss level? Which path do you think you'll face? Will you be able to reverse that point when you take that small mistake if you do?

Don't worry, whatever choice it is, you'll always have another path and another chance to make that character.

Tragic Racism...

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 07:26:20 GMT

...in our own commercials.

This entry is going to be obvious. No hiding here.

I can't believe this. I just saw a commercial ad for Wendy's right now. It had 2 white guys and an Asian guy behind. The white guy was explaining about a burger. Then, the Asian kid is like..."yeah, that's right." White guy turns to him, "wiz kid knows".

I can't believe it. WTF?! The things I've learned up to this point in AAS...wow. I know now. It's really hitting me hard.

That's it for now.

A Cleric's Blessing...

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 01:57:49 GMT

...may be the only thing you need when its heal is gone down to nothingness.

*I shall continue this reference. If you get it, say so. If you don't, don't worry about it.*

You don't need my heal. That's not my job. Mine is to freeze, stun, and throw lighting bolts at the characters that need it. But with some other jobs looking like its my thing, I change and alter the job I want. I can be your cleric when you need the healing powers. I can also be the blessing that can grant you stronger defense when you face against that boss. I can also try to hit these bosses that are in your way despite the fact that I'm so weak.

But that can change when I change my class. When I am your haster, I can attack super fast. I can jump into those situations and tackle it down right away with you as fast as I can. I can also use my "Dark Sight" in order to slowly creep up on things and attack it from behind. But I choose not to do those things because I like doing things head on. Sometimes, I need that avoid though and move away by only attacking from a distance knowing that you can take it on more than I can. Sure, I can still attack, but it'll only be weak attacks against these monsters, even if I do have one of the strongest throwing stars in the game.

I can also be your buddy tank if you need it. My abilities to tank these problems with you will only be for such a short time because of my weak damage. That's why I don't use that often. Eventually, if I try to take those hits head on, I can boost our attack power, even if we have to sacrifice our defenses. Then, we can take things head on.

Sometimes, I just want to be that lone flame that can boost your INTellegence, even if you don't need it. I can slow things down if you need that time frame. I can also teleport from place to place to scout out the other monsters for you, even if it's risking my own life for yours. Don't worry, that doesn't happen often. And eventually, I will poison those evil creatures of the dark. Can you do that? If that poison is effective enough, you can hit those monsters while I weaken them.

Maybe I could be bashful and let you do the talking by only shooting my bullets into those creatures. Sure, it may be weak now, but later, my bullets become stronger, faster, and definitely be more aggressive. The small speed boost can help too. I can also help you tackle more than one at the same time if you ever need it. I can eventually stun those things, but I'll end up flying back more and more as each attack hits.

I can do so much, but in the end, I know you're the one that will tank it all. I'm only the support carriage that could fire whatever I could dish out. You'll be the one gaining the experience more than I could ever imagine. And with that, you'll carry it on. You'll find that happiness in the next level up. Eventually, you'll hit 145 like her. Maybe she'll wait for you to level up that high, maybe not either. But you never know until you really try. The experience gain may be great, but there are risks. Are you willing to take those risks in order to take that next level up, or will you be lazy and have others do it for you? You face such an obstacle that I have not faced yet. But in the long run, I'll face it too, and I'll have to take a path like you. Either face it head on, or avoid and run away with whatever speed I may have.

Let me shower these icicles of frozen fury down upon these enemies and help you through. I'm glad to see that you're taking advantage of those two seconds of stun because once they're not stunned, they'll start moving again. Take advantage and that chance to kill those enemies. Do it because time is always moving. It never stops.

I've only seen you go through that jump quest. Can you make it? Even if you rise up to the highest part of the quest or not, you'll be able to get through it all. It's good that you're not one of those quitters. Yesterday, I gave up on a jump quest because I've been through that road before; I've seen the end results, and it's usually rewarding. But now, I don't know. I'm scared to find out if the reward is worth it in the end or not. But I know I have back up and a way to get through this without breaking a sweat. I just have to wait for that time, too. It may be awkward at first considering the last cleric and warrior combination I saw go through it but failed in the long run. Their items matched perfectly, but one broke that item and repaired it for someone else. I'm not mad at that person, but rather happy that they were able to get through it. I know you'll make it in the long run. Don't sweat it.

JUST DON'T FAIL LIKE THIS ONE DID...

I know you won't.

The Sun's Raidience...

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 18:14:47 GMT

...tries to emit its face into one's life but fails to do so at the same time.

DJ, this is a reply to you. It's how I interpreted things. I'm sure you'll get this reference.

Hits and misses. It's all you see, but which one will it be? Hit or miss? When the judgment comes down to you, you either fail or win at that point.

The "hero" of it all. Can you not see this "hero"? Dexless, full dex, high dex, they are all "heroes" you look up to in your time of need. "Heroines" are the same. Have you see one? I have. The heroine that calls it out, that tries to defeat this small snail in front of you because you are too weak, that heroine that defeats Zakum in order for you to receive that Zakum helm you have always wanted is that same heroine and always be that same heroine. Yet, you can only realize that this heroine had to level up so much just to get to where this heroine is at. 145 is such a high number, and you...only a mere 24, more than half way down.

Every hit you do, it's a miss or a hit. Which do you have? Hit or miss? If you hit, it's because you have dex. If you miss, then you have no dex. Even if you are merely 24, there are quite a bit of people who have those misses, but there are a lot that have those hits, too. However, later on, those dexless become one of the most powerful hitters in the game. Once they attain mastery in sword fighting, their hits become extra powerful. If you wish to attain that, patience is required. It may seem like an eternity just going by with only hitting snails or feeding off experience from others, but once you hit that level, you'll be so happy with the damage you can do to almost anything. From that point, other "heroes" and "heroines" will envy you. Will you be that "hero" that takes that challenge or will you be the envious one?

As for me, I have such duality that I do both. I hit, I miss, but I come back stronger than ever. My lightning doesn't go everywhere, it goes anywhere, depending on the attack. If not anywhere, it hits hard against an opponent. The same with my ice, except right now, my ice seems to cover quite a bit of area, even if it's not an opponent. Can you not see what I have done? My ice is taking over for now, but later, when I become stronger, I will prevail. When I have to knowledge or INTelligence, I will level more. And with each level up, I will need more experience in order to break that limit and go to the next level. For now, I am stuck, I am weak, but I know I will be stronger. When will it be? When will I stop missing my chance? who knows? I do. I know. When I do, I will never regret it.

A New Year Once More...

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 06:04:43 GMT

...comes to hit us again.

It's 2009. So much has happened already within this short period of time. My family and I have moved, new classes are coming upon us, new friends are coming and going, and so forth. Usually, I have something to write about. This time, not much.

Our soon-to-be Trueno is going to be up and running with it's old heart. Hopefully, we can resurrect it from its slumber and run it perfectly. I really want to get it running. Using that car as a daily drive would be awesome, but what's the point? I'd only use it once or twice a week. Plus, I wouldn't trust it in the middle of the street. >_>;; Hope we can get it fully running by the end of this month, or next month.

*sighs* Sometimes, jealousy gets the best of us.

School starts in a few hours...haven't bought books *nothing new there*, and I haven't done much with school. Gotta start working on that...

Missing Those Days...

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 18:01:03 GMT

...especially when you need to be IN CLASS.

Oops. That's all I have to say. LOL

Anyhow...I just got an inspiration to write.

A boy looks up into the glimmering sun where the yellow star shines its radiant light on the world. Slowly, he picks up his "Razor" scooter and leaves the grassy area he just sat on. "Man, it's hot today," he says to himself as he brushes off the debris from his ass. With his black and white Nike shoes, he walks to his car, a royal blue Toyota Tercel sedan with a small spoiler that lays on the trunk of the car. He looks at his black Dickies pants to see more of the grassy debris. Quickly, he rubs it off. Then, he sees more on his white polo shirt. "Damn, what did I sit in?" he asks as he brushes the rest of the debris off. "Well, it's time to go." The boy unlocks the car and steps into it. The royal blue's engine starts with a small roar of its own. He pushes down on the clutch, moves the stick to the reverse position, and slowly, he backs up from the parking lot. Suddenly, a loud voice yelling "Hikaru-kun!" from the distance is echoes to the boy's ears. "Who was that?" he asks as he peers into his mirrors. It is his friend, Takuya, running after his car. "Wait for me!" yells Takuya as he runs towards the royal blue car. Hikaru waits there in the car as he pulls the stick into neutral. "I wonder what's up," he says to himself. Takuya quickly opens the door panting. "Hikaru-kun," says Takuya while catching his breath. "Where are you headed off to?" Hikaru looks to him with a small smirk on his face. "Well, I'm heading up the mountain pass to go home." Takuya stares blankly. "Isn't that the longer way of going home?" "Well, I have time. Care to come with?" "Sure." Takuya goes into the front seat and sits on the passenger side. Quickly, Hikaru pulls into first gear while having the clutch pedal down. Slowly, he releases and presses on the gas pedal to leave the parking lot. The engine gives a small roar of its own as it pulls out of the driveway and onto the 210 freeway. The blinding sun passes by as the car speeds down the freeway. 65. 70. 75. 80. The car speeds up every ten seconds. The gasoline transitions from the fuel tank and out of the exhaust.

To Be Continued Later...

*If anyone knows what I'm talking about, then please say so! "Pirates FTW! w00t w00t! First one in Guild!"*

The Life that Ended...

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 17:40:58 GMT

...is the life that starts anew.

Well, I've lost everything. There's nothing I could say after that. I've lost my house, my privacy, my car, and so much more. And yet, why am I not sad? Why am I not mad?

...I'm not happy either.

What do I do? I have only 2 weeks to finish packing. I guess it's time to start somewhere. I guess the end has begun, and a new beginning is around the corner. Life is going to be strange now, especially living with someone else. I don't have my parents to support me, I don't have any family to stay around me, and I don't have money. Time for job hunting again. I'm really hoping I get something somewhere...

A Final Saying...

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 07:17:14 GMT

...into this prolonged goodbye.

Why is everyone seriously not connecting with one another? I swear, it's like national break up month or something. Kind of annoying...but it happens. Fall = Change. If this is one of them, then there is surely more to come.

The Fire that Rushes Through the Land...

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 07:14:25 GMT

...creates a burning sensation and a new hope of life.

So, it's done with finally. I was already expecting all this, I just wanted to prolong how long it would take. I figured as much after the stop of texts and quite a few things. I was wondering why she kept texting me throughout the weekend. I guess it was just time at that point. But now, it's seriously time to move along. I've been waiting for this to happen in a way, but at the same time, I didn't want it to happen. Sometimes, though, things happen for a reason. And somehow, my predictions were correct. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go through this quite a few times, but it'll be a while until I start over again. The fact that I'm really bad at sensing these things kind of sucks though. =/ But I get what I get, and I get what I deserve. Now, all my aim is to actually get through everything without a hitch. Unfortunately, that's not exactly working out right now. Things pile up on others, and unfortunately, it's not the best case scenario.

The memories I have now are the only thing keeping me binded through all this shit. Let's keep them, and hope that one day, things will look up. I'm already doing so. I know that in the end, there's a better future, a better life, and a better stance for me to take on. Experience owns everything.

Yeah, I'm done with relationships. They suck anyway.

And for the record, this isn't over yet. It's just changed into something different, that's all. It's more of a beginning rather than an end.

And one more thing...

...yes, I have been quite lost lately. Not sure what to do, and with situations right now, it's not looking good. But what can you do? That's just how things are sometimes. Gotta work through the difficulties of life. Pushing way through that darkness is the only way to truly achieve that happiness that we all dearly wish to attain.

DJ, you inspired me to write right now. Continue to do such things. It's a gift that only you have. And I never got to really ever say thank you to you. So, I really appreciate and thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your writing inspires me to write if you haven't really noticed. You're not some insignificant fool who does not. You actually do something to give back to the world, and for that, I truly appreciate. Don't stop 'cuz I know how you feel. I'm not. I'm never going to give up. Despite the conditions I'm in and the obstacles I'm currently facing, there's no chance that giving up will ever be an option. Not in this game that we call "life".

Believe you can do greatness, and you will one day. It's really all about positive thinking. Sometimes, you just do what you gotta do, and when you're not fit with that puzzle piece after you tried, well, either mold yourself to fit that piece or just don't do it. Most likely, it's best not to do it. Everyone will find their place in the world with their own piece, and so will you one day. Some have already found their pieces, and others have not.

The Dominant Narrative...

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 08:32:47 GMT

...controls the whole perspective of society, and it unpriviledges the others.

Something I actually got from Prof. Uba's class. I find it interesting that I'm actually starting to think in terms of deconstructing, but I hate doing the paper.

So much change is going on already. Yes, I know I've said this yesterday or the day before, but I already see some of the changes. The winds are howling and growling each waking hour now, and it seems that these winds will not begin dying down. It's starting to become colder. Sweater time? Perhaps.

So, I need to be a king this Sunday. I do, but don't want to do it. I guess I'll be the black sheep of the family this weekend. I wonder what that will be like...not good. I was never close to my family anyway, so I guess being the full-grown black sheep won't be anything new to me. I personally hate it when family and school collide or family and obligations. It's rather annoying, and most of the time, I choose family. This time, however, I choose the obligations. I'd rather not get that "F" in one of the most important classes I need to have for my secondary major. I just wish there was a way where I could be at both. My deepest apologies for having this disappearing act. I just hope I'm able to meet with them one day again. I think this will be the first time I'll be alone at home for a weekend...just...me, and no one else. o_o;;

I'm not going to survive...damn school. Damn these obligations I must take care of...I probably won't even go to Fiesta. If that's the case, I wish Rainer, Jax, Ralph and his band, Carlos, and all other people good luck, good fortune, and have fun doing what you love, music.